So as you can see, my blog has been quiet since Christmas and there’s a reason for it.. The title is a bit of a give away but yes I dropped out of university end of December last year and it’s one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make. I don’t regret it though, not for a single second! Okay yeah I miss my uni friends as I was used to seeing them everyday and I moved back home so I lost my independence but at the end of the day I was seriously unhappy and it was the right thing to do. Let’s go back a bit and I’ll explain everything..
So I started university September 2013 and I was full of nerves and excitement all at the same time and I was genuinely really happy! You know moving into halls, starting your new course, meeting new people, the student nights out; all the stereotypical things that come along with going to university and yeah it started off really well but sadly it didn’t last long.
Part 1 I had got into the habitat of missing a couple of lectures, not for any particular reason I guess just the normal stuff like not wanting to wake up for your 9am or the drink the night before is hitting me but eventually I just got so used to not going I would just sleep through my lectures.. Which I know was totally the wrong thing to do, I was paying £9,000 a year just to sleep and do nothing how stupid is that?! So one day I woke up and thought “No Ali, you need to get your arse out of bed, this is your life you’re dealing with you idiot!” and it took a lot of hard work and stress to catch up but obviously you do what you have to if you want something that bad, right?
Part 2 A couple of weeks later once I had got back into the swings of things I got into a bit of an accident. Long story short I got into a very hot shower and by the way time I’d started to feel light headed I passed out, hit my head on a corner of a wall and that was when the ambulance was called. Luckily my boyfriend and friends with me at university so they could help me and call the ambulance. Most of it was a complete blur to be honest but 13 stitches, two black eyes and a fractured nose later, it was pretty much all over. I had to take some time off to recover but I thought “I’ve only taken a bit off surely I can catch up” oh how wrong was I.. and when you have such a big workload on your hands it’s hard to handle and if I’m honest at the time I didn’t deal with stress very well as I kept it all to myself so my friends and family didn’t have clue..
I did finally get some help after getting into a state but hey I got there in the end!
I think that whole year for me was just hectic so you can imagine my grades weren’t as good as I wanted them to be. Don’t get me wrong they could have been a lot worse but I was still really disappointed and it was then that I thought maybe university just wasn’t for me so I said to myself I’d go back after summer and see how it went. And sadly still no good so I cried on the phone to my mum for half an hour and made the hard decision to leave. But I think it was the best thing I could have done, it was just wasn’t for me and staying would have made things worse. I hate leaving a course I really liked and the friends I made there but I couldn’t stay just for that. Most of my family and friends were quite understanding; confused at first but once I explained they could see why I did what I did.
I’m not really sure why I think you guys will be interested but when I dropped out of university I didn’t have anyone to talk to that really understood, meaning someone else who had done the same thing. So for anyone who has either like me left university or maybe deciding.. you’re not alone! All I can really say is don’t rush into anything and don’t make any rash decisions, ask for help first! There might be other options and you may be able to find a solution and carry on enjoying what you do! Or if you have left university, then you’re really brave! There’s always plan b like jobs, apprenticeships or maybe you just want to do a different degree but either way don’t give up on finding something you enjoy and want to turn it into your career!
Well apart from that I’m good haha! I’m a lot happier so now I can get back to blogging again! Also if you guys have any questions or advice then feel free to comment below, and I’ll see you next time soon 🙂